With being an amateur blogger comes great insecurities.
Most of you probably think I have my blogging life together, and I’m not insecure about anything. THAT IS A TOTAL LIE. I have all the insecurities, and I’m terrible at not playing a part in the comparison game – I play it all the time. So, I decided that I’d talk about some of my blogging insecurities and hope I’m not the only one who’s suffering through the same thing.
I feel like this is mainly because I blog and I’m not too good at time management – I usually throw my all into one favorite thing and desert literally everything else – but I won’t say that it doesn’t hurt sometimes when I see all these other bloggers read 20+ books a month and finish their yearly reading challenge easily, especially when that used to be me just last year.
I will say, since my reading slump in the first half of last year has gone away, it’s been better, but seeing all that precious reading time wasted earlier this year frustrates me.
I’ve already confessed that I don’t feel like I’m a good enough reviewer, and it’s true! I rarely ever feel truly proud about the reviews I write, but I guess they’re satisfactory enough.
I will say, I feel like ever since I’ve been doing mini reviews and lists for them, I’ve become more confident to write reviews, but I still see so many other talented reviewers and I wish I had their skills.
Sometimes, I feel like I’m writing about the same discussion topics that so many other book bloggers before have already talked about (which I guess is the curse of being so late to the game)!
I know there are so many of you who are like, “WHAT??? NO!” but I guess that really does go to show that we are our own biggest critics if I’m really the only one that feels that way.
So many people talk about how people’s personalities and blogging voice is what keeps them coming back, so I guess it means I must have it if so many of you guys are constantly reading and commenting on my blog all the time!
I’ve never really thought of myself as having a blogging voice and I feel like it comes more naturally to others than it does to me. I usually blog the way I think and talk, and I don’t really think I stand out that much in that way either, so I always feel like I come off as bland in my writing.
I definitely do feel like my blog and graphics have greatly improved ever since my whole make-over a couple months ago, but there are times where I look at my favorite blogs and see how pretty they are and what they can do with self-hosted WordPress and how amazing their pictures look, and I feel down on my luck because I don’t think that I’ll ever get to their level.
Why am I not super accomplished at graphics and web design?
This is another point that you guys are going to probably be like, “WHAT? HOW?” but sometimes I look at other blogs that started less time than me or around the same time as me or bloggers who started only a couple months ago but already have thousands of followers everywhere and wonder if there’s some secret formula out there that’ll show me what I’m doing wrong.
I know that I’m probably not, and it’s really up to chance and a lot of factors – I know I can’t even put my blog growth on just ONE THING – but it’s still really frustrating sometimes.
I’m sure we’ve all had those days where we just feel meh about our blog, whether because it doesn’t look like we want it to or our stats aren’t good enough or we aren’t proud of our content, and I think that’s totally fine!
I know I have those days as well where I just want to mope around, and, eventually, I’ll realize how happy I am with my blog and how far I’ve come and realize how silly it is and that I’ll be okay.
What are some of your book blogging insecurities? Do we share any of the same ones?